Oneness Urges "Connection" To ItSelf

M.L. Writes, Felt the urge to connect, but don't know what to say. Maybe it's just time to have the ego be completely disregarded again. The pointers are going okay I suppose. Like "I" could tell. It seems like a bad idea to try to talk about what's going on because it just reinforces the seeker identity.

That urge comes from Oneness ... the Truth wants only Itself. And as John Wheeler quips, "The Path Is A Truthless Land." ALL paths lead "somewhere" ... the Truth of Being Awareness Aliveness is Right here Right Now and That is THAT. Ha! "Time to have the ego completely disregarded?" That is just another story of an uninvestigated storyteller … does that “I” telling the story actually exist? Where is this infamous ego that needs disregarding!? Is there any such thing? Or is there just Space-Like Awareness and a thought taken to be “who or what you are?” That is simply the Case Of Mistaken Identity! NOW quite possibly there will be a seeing from nowhere by no-one that even THAT is (inevitably and always) yet another aspect of what YOU really are, which is … Ta Da… EVERYTHING! That does NOT mean that there is everything and then apart from everything there is an “I.” Seeing this is the final understanding (not a mental comprehension … this is direct know-ing without a know-er.

A reminder from Maharaj: "One in a million will listen, understand and abide by the advice of the Guru, that ‘you are everything.’ He or she accepts with conviction ... [but] in most cases, the beingness assumes that it is a body that has taken shape, so one believes that he or she is born and will die. ... there is no death and no birth; one can never be born and die." The pointer is, BE that "One In A Million!"

Thinking about it and making up stories about it and trying to understand it are all not very helpful. Like the end of that [Bob Adamson] clip you sent, just ideas chasing ideas.
Yep. So simply STOP the habit in its tracks: As long as there is ANY vestige of belief in a “you” put that “you” to the task of Self-Discovery through Absolute Unswerving Commitment and Intention! Refuse to buy the con man mind’s game of separateness and suffering. Refuse all ideas of separateness and entity. Watch the thoughts as they come and go in Presence-Awareness and don’t latch on to any thought as being you or meaning something about you… that is all. Break that habit right now!

I do have a question on the pointers. You wouldn't think something so simple could be done incorrectly, but I've discovered there are a few ways to do "who am I". One way, which I think you were saying in the conference call, is after asking "do I exist" you look for the "I" in that place where you see directly that you exist.

What is this asking? Where is the ask-er? What says “I” over and over and over? WHAT is THAT? Where does that arise from and subside back into?

Ask the self-concept, the “I,” … Do I Exist? There is ONLY the QUESTION.
If you look for an answer you are sticking yourself back into ignorance.
Ask “you,” Do I Exist? No Answer. Ask with NO expectation or agenda to “get somewhere.” You are already HERE NOW. You ALREADY ARE what the mind seeks.
Do I Exist?
Do I Exist?
Do I Exist?
Do I Exist?
Do I Exist?
STOP!!!

Like just asking "do I exist" sort of throws you back into "that" and obviously there is no "I" there. Another way is looking in the mind and seeing the "I" come up and seeing it is just a thought. Does it matter which way you do it or are both effective? Or am I way off track and need to be pointed back to the pointers?

I -I- I- I- STOP! What “throws" who into what? You are already THAT.

Anyhow, it's been back to basics here. Pondering the fact of my existence, which really is quite amazing. Also, after the mind exploded last week, things have been subtly different.
Once the seeing has happened there may “seem to be a ”flip-flopping” into identity but you can never again take it as seriously as you did before the mind collapsed in the First Instant of Timeless being.

I thought about you on your birthday and I hope you had a good time.

No-one was born. Yet a good “time” was had … by no-one!

I'm going into a meeting now. Don't blow my mind while I'm in there, okay? ;-)

WHAT “mind?” Show “me” a “mind” and “I” “won’t blow it!” LOL.

Ponder this… which was written today to another “seeker” … all you are facing is habits of the brain that is accustomed to thoughts of me myself and i. That was gone through in the charlie thing... it came to pass ... the investigation happened and all the story was seen as false, as is the story-teller... Break the habit. It takes your intention. It takes your commitment. Self-Knowledge is NOT a trivial matter! It takes all you can muster ... paradoxically for when you look there is No “you" but as is said over and over so long as there is that belief in a "person with will and volition" put that "person to the task of questioning its very existence!

To repeat what Nisargadatta said: "One in a million will listen, understand and abide by the advice of the Guru, that ‘you are everything.’ He or she accepts with conviction ... [but] in most cases, the beingness assumes that it is a body that has taken shape, so one believes that he or she is born and will die. ... there is no death and no birth; one can never be born and die."

BE that "one in a million! You are much closer to "the end" than “you" think.